“Don’t cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won’t let you see the stars”- Violeta. Why are you crying? Why your head bowed/downcast? Don’t give up yet, focus on Jesus, the author, and finisher of your faith. I know you are worried because your beginning look so rough, and there is no hope along the way. However, the bible says in Eccl 7: 8, “The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride.” I speak this word into your situation that the end of your matter shall be better, brighter, and Stronger.
One of the Scottish proverbs says, “He that weel bides, weel betides.” Means he that endure shall arise and shine. Likewise, if you can wait upon God, He will bring you out of your troubles and make you shine again. Isaiah 40:31 says, “those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint.”
Give God quality praise.
Pray about your worries and doubt you might have as lead by the Holy Spirit. But do not doubt when you are praying. When you pray, believe.
Remember that Jesus Christ loves you.